Thank you, thank you Lord for lifting this fog of fear from me, for allowing me to see clearly right now. Today, this day, this moment I am blessed beyond all reason because you have granted me a lighter sentence and showered me with your grace and mercy. I feel your presence with me in each breath, I close my eyes and peace floods me…and you whisper..”rest in my peace Cindy Kay” and I do.
I am grateful for the pain in my left hip-because I FEEL the pain, I am no longer numb to life’s moments. Your sun filters through the green oak leaves making dancing arms of a solid trunk. You send this ever so gentle wind to carress my face, because you KNOW my favorite things. I am light as the breeze you send. Shadows of leaves play on the deck, I smile.
My sweet Savior who carries me in his arms through each trial, picks me up when I fall and sets me firmly back down on the ground, so I may begin again. I thank you. Clense me, use me, let me serve you the rest of my days and BE a blessing to others.
Sunday we trimmed, pruned and then eventually chopped down 2 big bushes to the ground. As I worked through my anxiety that morning, I began to feel Jesus teaching me a lesson in each chop I made. I could see crystal clear why He prunes us. Dead branches don’t grow. Mangled, tangled messes can’t produce new leaves.
A hornets nest scared me at first, but I calmed down when I decided the whole bush had to come down, start over, begin anew…then..the hornets leave. It’s what Jesus was doing for me, trimming, cutting, prunning and it HURT, and I cried and screamed. But, He was right, those parts were all dead. God made his world so perfect – every creature and living thing rids itself of dead parts, and grows new, and re-news itself, as the butterfly does. Jesus is recreating me, repositioning me to come under his covering and fall under his grace, and it feels great!
My front yard looks so beautiful now, clean, I can see out the window, I can visualize the new strong bush that will grow there. I am renewed, refreshed and loved deeply by my Savior and I am so grateful.
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