A few weeks ago I lost a great story I was typing just off the top of my head, clicking away at the keyboard, trusting that the machine I was using would save all my words. It failed me, every single heart felt word was lost somewhere in cyber space, and Lord only knows where they went. I just could not seem to bring it all back to my mind, it appears that story was never to take form again…and at that juncture I had 2 choices to be positive Paula or negative Nancy. I like Paula best, she seems to cheer me up and get me through the crummy days and negative emotions. I made a decision to let go of the anger of loss and just simply move on. So here I am fingertips to that same keyboard and the same program on tumblr and praying this time my thoughts will cling to the screen and be there for me when I am done writing.
That is hope, that is faith in something beyond my control. Kinda, pretty much like the faith I have daily that even though life is really beyond my control I continue to know and believe that my God has me in the palm of His hand. I trust that He is there walking with me through a life software program that I do not understand, nor do I control. Funny, its the loss of control part of life that gets me the most. Carrie Underwood belts out “Jesus take the wheel..” but really letting go means I could crash….see it is that control thing again.
I searched for hours for that missing blog, I finally just figured it went to the planet of missing socks, lol. Wonder how many hours we spend in our lifetimes looking for lost stuff. Truth is seldom do we ever find what is lost, how frustrating for us all. That night I had to take a walk around my porch in the dark to calm down, until finally relinquishing to the loss of control. Computer won, I lost, move on.
We are all lost until we find our way to God, wandering all about this life out of place, not in our proper home. Thank goodness God really is in control of the wheel of my life, cause I sure am not. Not really, oh I think I am but nope it is just like my lost in space story, the only thing I really CAN control is my reaction to what happens to me.
“…but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace.” Romans 8:6
“A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure.” Proverbs 16:9
“Find rest, O my soul in God alone, my hope comes from him.” Psalm 62:5
Thank you Lord for being in control so I can rest in your perfect peace. Amen
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