Last night I had a horrible dream, the kind that leaves your heart racing for morning light, escape. Super-sized tigers and lions had broken into my safety zone, my home, and were attacking us. I was making a feeble attempt to fight them off, kicking and screaming, guarding MY cubs. No one helped me, I was alone in this one sided battle. I woke up. Shaken, but awake.
For several years now, God has laid on my heart to read and study the book of Daniel. I have tried, it’s about dreams and lions and interpretations and just stuff I don’t get, especially how it relates to me specifically. On 6/24/2009 I had marked this passage: “…And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.” Daniel 6:23 God’s timing is different than ours as they say, amazing that what He laid on me several years ago I would find I needed so desperately today. The winds of change are in my life, yes God, just as you told me they would come, they have and are still coming.
Every single passage I studied today in my devotional time had the same message- trust God and ask the spirit to control your mind. I, God, am providing training through these life experiences to help you, I hear Him telling me, really I shout back?? Learn to rely on ME 24/7, trust ME to let things happen, do not complain, for I AM CONSTANT- wow, that’s a standout, cause I gotta tell you not a darn thing else in my life is right now. It’s all crashing down on me, all my support, my help. I told a friend, I think God is taking away all my support because He does not want me relying on them anymore-He only wants me leaning on Him.
I don’t think I can do what He wants me or needs me to do as long as I am co-dependent on people and earthly things. This morning, after recalling that dream and reading His word, I see that. The last devotion I read was, “The wall of fear”, well, I tell you what-that dream last night was the epitome of fear, real as it could be, basically no way out, I was on my back on the floor, kicking a huge tiger with my feet, and no weapon….really? Who in the world did I think was gonna win that one? Even me, as a mother fighting to defend her helpless baby, would not win this one alone. But, I forgot about God, forgot what He did for Daniel, forgot what He could do for me. See I was trying, I am trying, to fight the tigers in my life all by myself, without any weapons or protection. I am not going to win this way. Nope. Gonna get eaten alive without God.
“Your present situation is not about you at all, it’s about me, about my will and my purpose in this earth.” No fear because I am near. And, here’s the irony here, God reminds me “I am like a fierce lioness protecting her cubs, I always come out fighting on your behalf.”
Thank you my Lord that you do, because there are always battles and I will surely not win any without you. The funny thing about my scary dream was- I was only thinking of my baby, not myself-that level of courage surprised me, just like God surprises me in the midst of my troubles and suffering, saying simply; I am near.
So, today, I think I will surprise God and just let go and let God, all day, today and then again the next day and the next and the next…….
“He rescues and He saves; He performs signs and wonders in the heavens and on the earth. He has rescued Daniel from the power of the lions.” Daniel 6:27
And surely He will rescue me.
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